Then it was over. "Scott, what's going
on?" Pamela cried.
"Shut up," he said, eyes on the
transporter. "Tour One, Scott here. Do you read?" He paused. Pamela
bounded toward him with giant steps, and he snapped, "Pamela, you idiot,
you want to hole your suit?"
She pulled up, slipped, and fell on her
rear again. He turned back toward the transporter. "Jack? Al?" Nothing.
"What's wrong?" Pamela picked herself
up, trying to brush the dust off her suit, but it clung as if glued
there. Her voice wavered. "Why don't they answer?"
Scott stared at her. Dust was still
slowly settling on the overturned transporter, and she asked what was
wrong? "Earthers!" he muttered.
#
"Earthers!" Scott growled in disgust as
he watched the twenty-four tourists disembark from the Lunar Shuttle.
They squealed and bounced up and down in the one-sixth gravity as though
the moon had been put there just so they wouldn't have to buy a
trampoline. You'd think after three days in zero-G and two days in
slow-spinning Gorbachev Station, the novelty of low gravity would have
worn off, Scott thought sourly. And most of them were old enough to be
his parents. Or his grandparents.
Just like everyone else in Apollo City.
Scott shook his head and walked toward
the tour group with the graceful, low-energy shuffle that marked a true
Lunite. Jack Porter and Al Donovan, a hydroponics tech and an assistant
geologist who had been pressed into service as tour guides, were doing
their best to calm the Earthers down before one of them bounced a little
too high and cracked his or her graying head on the ceiling. Then they'd
be ushering them off to the "Apollo Hilton," just another pre-fab
underground hut dressed up to only slightly higher standards than the
colonists' own quarters. Nothing like a real Earth hotel, Scott had been
told, but then, nobody expected that; they'd paid the extraordinarily
high ticket prices just to be on the moon.
He didn't understand why they'd want to.
Nor did he understand why he'd been pulled away from the observatory to
meet--he checked his wristcomp--Miss Pamela Ash. But he could guess. She
was probably some old biddy who'd been a Scott Morgan groupie since the
days when he was headline news on Earth. "BOUNCING BABY BOY BORN ON
MOON" and "MOON TODDLER TAKES FIRST LOW-GRAVITY STEPS" and all that
crap. She'd probably asked specially to see him, and Luna Agency, never
one to miss a P.R. bet, had not only agreed, they'd ordered him to spend
the entire tour with the dried-up old--
"You must be Scott," said a voice. A
very young voice. He blinked and refocused his eyes from the group of
aging tourists to someone who had come up on his left. A girl about his
own age held out her hand. "I'm Pamela Ash."
#
"Come on!" Scott headed across the
crater floor to the crippled transporter. If the hull had been
breached--Scott hadn't grown up on the moon without being thoroughly
indoctrinated about the effects of explosive decompression. He'd heard
the stories from those who had returned from the futile rescue mission
to Far Side Outpost after it had abruptly ceased transmission. He'd
never seen a decomp victim himself--and after hearing those stories, he
didn't want to.
"Has anybody been hurt? What about my
parents? Are my parents all right?" Pamela sounded close to panic. She
bounded after him, wasting energy and oxygen.
"How should I know?" Can't she see?
he thought furiously. Doesn't she realize? If the transporter was
holed, everyone inside without a suit was dead. Even if the hull was
intact, the transporter had toppled onto its airlock. The people inside
couldn't get out and he and Pamela, the only ones still outside,
couldn't get in. He didn't know how much oxygen Pamela had left, but he
knew how much ˆhe๘ did--and it wasn't much. Not much at all. Yet she
kept wasting what little she had with useless jabber and useless
bouncing around and--useless. That's what she was. Useless. Like all
Earthers.
#
As he led her after the others toward
the Hilton, she kept up an endless string of prattle about Earthside
entertainers and Tri-V programs and school friends and the two weeks
she'd just finished "back home in Montana" riding horses and
rock-climbing and how she'd been looking forward to coming to the moon
for two years and how it was going to be hard to go back to high school
after this--and she kept bouncing, bouncing, bouncing, as if she
couldn't believe that a world existed where she weighed only one-sixth
of what she was used to and she had to prove it to herself with every
step. Scott grimaced, and wished he was back in the observatory
comparing starplates, doing something useful instead of wasting his time
with this...this girl.
He glanced over his shoulder at her as
she paused by one of Apollo's few windows, this one showing the view out
over the Sea of Tranquility. The three-quarter Earth hung in the sky
like it did in the famous Apollo 8 photograph that decorated one full
wall of the dining room. Pamela quit talking for a few seconds, and just
for those few seconds, Scott couldn't help admiring the way the
Earthlight reflected in her blue eyes and lit a few stray strands of her
long, light-brown hair--and then she spoiled it by saying, "Isn't Earth
beautiful? Have you ever been there?"
Scott turned away abruptly. "Hurry up.
We've got to catch up with the others."
She hurried after him. "You didn't
answer my question."
He said nothing.
"You've never been to Earth?"
Scott clenched his left fist, the one
she couldn't see. "No," he said, in a tone that should have meant,
"Leave it alone."
Apparently it didn't. "I know you were
born here, but I just assumed--"
How much of this did he have to put up
with? Scott clenched his fist a little tighter, his nails, short-bitten
though they were, digging painfully into his palm. "You assumed wrong.
Now drop it."
They were close behind the rest of the
tour group now, just approaching the "lobby" of the Hilton, and his
final words must have come out a little louder than he intended, because
a couple near the back of the group, not quite as old as some of the
others, looked around, frowning. "Hey, Mom, Dad," Pamela called
cheerfully. "Isn't this great?"
"Wonderful," said the woman, smiling at
Pamela, but then she gave Scott a look somewhere between "uncertain" and
"unfriendly" before turning back to catch something Al Donovan was
saying.
"How come you're not telling me all the
stuff the other two guys are telling the old folks?" Pamela asked. She
didn't seem to have been put off by his brusque answer one bit, but at
least she had changed the subject.
"It's just a lot of crap about how
Apollo City was built. If you'd done your homework before you came up
here, you'd know all that."
"Oh, you mean stuff like, first
permanent base established 2011, first year-round workers here in 2020,
four years later, first baby born off-Earth--"
Scott's face burned. "Stop it."
"But you said--"
Scott looked ahead, saw the last of the
tour group disappearing through the pressure door into the Hilton,
turned and grabbed Pamela's arm and pushed her up against the wall.
"Let's get something straight," he snarled. "The only reason I'm here
and not doing something useful is that this is what I was assigned, and
I don't have any choice. Why I was assigned this particularly
unpleasant job I have no idea. It must be a punishment for something.
I've got no use for lazy, wasteful Earthers. I've got better things to
do than show a spoiled rich kid around Apollo City. I'm going to do it
because up here, unlike Earthside, everybody has to work and sometimes
they have to do things they don't want to. But I don't have to like it,
and I won't be happy again until you and your parents and the rest of
you rich wasters who could afford to blow money on something as useless
as a trip to the moon are back on Earth where you belong. Got it?"
Pamela easily jerked her arm free. "You
won't be happy 'again'? With an attitude like that, it's hard to imagine
you ever have been." Then she smiled at him sweetly. "Now would you mind
showing me where everyone else has gone? We wouldn't want my parents to
start thinking we're trying to sneak off alone together. They might get
the wrong idea." She bounded off down the hall, and Scott, after banging
his hand hard once against the ceramic wall, glided after her, not
nearly as smoothly as before.
#
Up close, the damage to the transporter
looked superficial. The sides were dented, but not holed that he could
see; he was glad the Earthside Lunar Agency idiot who had been pressing
for big windows in the transporter just for the tourists had been
properly ignored. But there was still no answer to his repeated requests
for radio response, even from Pamela, who had fallen
uncharacteristically silent. About time, Scott thought.
He slid around to the nose of the
vehicle. The drivers' windows were buried in dust and small rocks, but
he thought he could dig through the debris--in three or four hours. He
glanced at the instrument panel on his left suit cuff: a little over two
hours' worth of air left.
Something on the edge of the rubble
covering the transporter's nose caught his eye. He bent down and, with a
little effort, tugged it free.
Pamela leaped over to him. "What is it?"
"Main antenna." He tossed it aside.
"That's why they're not hearing us." For the first time he said what he
feared out loud. "If they're alive."
"If they're alive?" He could feel
Pamela's horrified stare, though her expression was hidden behind her
reflective faceplate. "But Mom and Dad are--we've got to do something!"
"We can't get in," Scott said. "And we
can't see in. I don't--" He stopped suddenly. "Grab a rock."
"What?"
"A rock! Oh, never mind." He found a
likely looking specimen nearby, knelt by the transporter, touched his
helmet to the hull and began banging for all he was worth, the sound
ringing as clear in his ears as he hoped it would ring inside the
transporter--if there were still air in there.
Pamela dropped to her knees beside him
and touched her helmet to the metal, too, her quiet, "Please, God..."
almost lost in the clanging of stone on metal.
#
Following orders grimly, Scott spent two
days showing Pamela everything--the hydroponics farm, the fusion
reactor, life support, Base Central, living quarters, the recreation
dome, laboratories--everything that made up Apollo City, home to 120
researchers and support personnel on one-year shifts, eight permanent
residents, including his parents, and one native: him.
Pamela took it all in with wide eyes and
that same upbeat approach that had annoyed him from the start. After
meeting his parents, Drs. Arnold and Elizabeth Morgan, noted
physiologist and honored sociologist, respectively, she introduced him
to her own: her father, Lloyd Ash, president of a company specializing
in temperature-regulating sporting outfits, and her mother, Mary Anne
Ash, who wrote historical romances set in the 1960s. They were a
pleasant couple who obviously weren't at all sure what to make of Scott.
"Guess you're glad to finally have someone your own age around, eh,
son?" Mr. Ash said with bluff heartiness as they ate lunch together in
the main dining room.
Scott, who had been as pleasantly
neutral as he knew how to be during the meal, flushed, temper rising. It
was what his own parents had said after he had come home from his first
encounter with Pamela and the rest of the useless Earthers. They'd
practically grilled him on what he'd thought of her, as if he should
have fallen in love at first sight or something. He kept his voice under
careful control as he answered Mr. Ash. "I don't mind being the youngest
here. I do my full share of work."
Mrs. Ash laughed. "I'm sure you do,
Scott, but haven't you ever had anyone to play with?"
Play with? What did they think Apollo
City was, a resort? Yeah, Scott answered himself bitterly. They probably
did. "No," he said.
"Oh, you poor boy!" said Mrs. Ash, and
that was as much as Scott could take.
He stood up, chair skittering backward.
"Excuse me. I have work to do." Then he left the table without looking
back.
He went straight to the gym. Pamela
found him there an hour later, "lifting weights"--though the resistance
on the bar he was curling was actually created by a magnetic field.
Sweat poured down his bare back and chest as he did a dozen repetitions
at a higher "weight" than he normally used. "Very impressive," she said,
coming around the machine to face him. "This is what was so important
you were rude to my parents?"
"I have to work out every day," Scott
grunted, continuing to lift.
"Have to?"
"Have to." He finished the reps and
released the bar, then leaned on it. He didn't look at Pamela as he
reached for a towel and wiped away sweat. "I'm sorry if I was rude. But
your parents were rude first."
"All they did was ask a question--"
"Yeah? Well, what business is it of
theirs?" Scott tossed the towel away and began readjusting the machine
for bench presses. "I had enough of nosy Earthers prying into my life
when I was a kid. I don't need it any more."
"They were trying to be friendly."
Scott lay on his back and adjusted his
grip on the bar. "I don't need Earther friends." He began lifting.
"Oh, right, you've got so many here on
the moon." Pamela shook her head. "I can't figure you. So you're the
first and so far the only person ever born on the moon. Big deal. You
can't make a life out of that. But you're trying, aren't you? It's like
you're part of the machinery here, not a real person at all. I've
watched you: you're always alone, except when you're ordered to be with
somebody, like me. You don't want Earther friends, and you don't have
any Lunite friends. Far as I can tell, all you've got is yourself."
"Good enough," Scott said between
clenched teeth.
"Yeah?" Pamela shook her head. "I've
seen clams with less shell than you." She turned away. "I can
tell this bus trip tomorrow is going to be a real joy."
#
Scott quit banging and waited, holding
his breath. No answer. Beside him Pamela shifted position, and as her
faceplate fell into shadow he was able to see her eyes, wide and
frightened, in the light of her helmet instruments. He lifted the rock
and banged again. Still nothing. Scott swore and lifted his head.
"They're not--"
"I heard something!" Pamela cried.
Scott pressed his helmet against the
hull again. Was that a faint click? It came again. Yes! He tapped back,
wishing someone had thought to make Morse code required learning on the
Moon for just such emergencies. They could communicate nothing except
their presence, but whoever was inside kept tapping frantically, over
and over...
#
At last Scott banged again, twice, by
way of good-bye, and got to his feet. "At least we know they're alive."
"We've got to get help!" Pamela said
frantically. "Can't you call Apollo City on your suit radio?"
Idiot! Scott thought. "Not enough
range," he said. "What we've got to do is set up the transporter's
emergency transmitter--it sends out a distress signal. But it has to go
through the Lunar Communications Satellite, and it's low on the horizon
from here. I've got to get it out of this crater."
"Back the way we drove in?"
"Too long. I've only got a couple of
hours' worth of air left. What about you?"
"I don't--"
They shouldn't even let Earthers on
the moon! "Left arm. Third readout."
Pamela looked. "3:07?"
"Three hours, seven minutes. Estimated
from your rate of usage so far. Take it easy, you could have more. But
it's still not enough to get out of the crater the way we came in." He
tilted his head back and looked up the crater wall to the high rim from
which the rocks burying the transporter had fallen. "I'm going to have
to climb up there."
#
At supper, Scott's parents quizzed him
again about his day with the Earthers. "So you had dinner with the
Ashes," his mother said pleasantly as his father placed steaming dishes
on the table. "How nice."
"No, it wasn't." Scott ladelled potatoes
onto his plate. "All they wanted was to ask nosy questions."
"What kind of questions?"
"The usual Moon Baby crap. 'Didn't you
miss having kids to play with?' That kind of thing." Scott poured a
glass of Pepsi-Coke. "What business is it of theirs? I get enough of
that around here." He had the glass halfway to his lips before something
suddenly registered on him. He set the glass down carefully. "Wait a
minute. I didn't tell you I had dinner with the Ashes."
His parents exchanged glances. "Someone
mentioned it--"
"You've had the cameras on me again,
haven't you? Haven't you?"
"Now, son, the cameras are on all the
time, you know that," his father said reasonably. "They're not aimed at
anyone in particular--"
"But you were using them to watch me,
weren't you? A laboratory rat gets more privacy than I do!"
"Dear, you have to understand, you're a
unique--"
"I know all about how unique I am. My
nose is rubbed in it every day, isn't it? Everybody is urged to work
out, but I'm the only one who has to do it religiously, because I
haven't quite developed properly, have I? Not enough gravity up here.
Everyone has medical checkups on a regular basis, but I'm the only one
who has to see the doctor every week and have a complete physical every
month. And it all goes into the computer, doesn't it? Wonder how puberty
is affecting Moon Baby? Check the computer. Moon Baby's latest IQ
scores? All in the computer. But you'd think I could at least eat dinner
without being spied on by my own parents!" For the second time that day,
Scott walked out on a meal.
Until that moment he'd been trying to
think of a way to avoid the "bus tour," as Pamela had called it, a
two-day trip out and back to a special dome set up at the Apollo 11
landing site, with a couple of stops in "scenic" locations where the
tourists were suited up and carefully shepherded outside for a few
minutes of "basking in the Earthlight beneath the unwinking stars," as
the purple prose of the tourism brochure put it. Scott had hated the
whole useless exercise, but now it appealed to him. Maybe it meant close
quarters with Pamela and the other Earthers for a couple of days, but it
also meant escape from Apollo City, from "safety" cameras and from his
parents, who he sometimes thought had conceived him simply as a
physiological and sociological experiment, though they claimed he was an
"accident."
Either way, once his mother was
pregnant, his parents had fought for three months with Luna Agency for
the right for him to be born on the moon. The Agency had finally agreed,
but had stipulated that no other moon-born children would be allowed
until this "experimental" child had proved to develop normally.
So Scott had grown up surrounded only by
adults, in a harsh environment, subjected to an unending barrage of
tests and evaluations and, for his first few years, to an equal barrage
of publicity, until finally the novelty wore off and the Moon Baby was
allowed to slip into relative obscurity--until tourists started coming
to the Moon. Then Luna Agency had made him one of their drawing cards.
See the Moon Baby in its natural habitat!
Only this time, for the first time,
they'd ordered him to accompany a single individual instead of just
putting in an appearance, and as he mulled that over while getting
together his gear for the tour, Scott suddenly realized the truth: it
was all another experiment. Thrust the Moon Baby, now the first Moon
Adolescent, into the company of an attractive young member of the
opposite sex. See if he's grown up normal by the way he reacts.
"I might as well be on a treadmill!"
Scott shouted, and just in case there was a hidden camera in his
bedroom--and at that moment he wouldn't have been surprised --he made an
obscene gesture to empty air, added a couple of choice swear words he'd
picked up from the newest workers from the stations, then stormed out of
the apartment. No, two days with Earthers didn't look bad at all.
#
Scott brushed away dirt from an
equipment hatch at the rear of the transporter while Pamela watched,
silent again. For a moment, as he tugged at the hatch, he feared it had
jammed, but finally it jerked open, revealing the featureless white box
of the emergency transmitter. He hauled it out and checked to make sure
the green power light glowed at its base. Then he glanced at his wrist
again. 1:41. He looked up at the sheer crater wall. He thought he could
make it up and activate the transmitter. But they were still an hour
from the Apollo 11 dome, a full day from Apollo City. The crew at the
dome would set out at once, but by the time they reached the accident
site...
His heart pounded in his chest and sweat
ran off his face. Too bad his parents didn't have a monitor on him, he
thought numbly. They could learn a lot: Moon Baby suffers abject terror.
Moon Baby undergoes oxygen deprivation. Moon Baby suffocates. Poor Moon
Baby.
He was wasting time. He started toward
the cliff face, then pulled up short as Pamela bounded past, turned and
faced him. "I'll lead," she said.
"Don't be stupid!" He didn't have time
for this! "You're an Earther!"
"And you're a stuck-up Lunite with a
chip on your shoulder the size of Alaska and a swelled head to match,"
Pamela said pleasantly. "You ever done any rock climbing?"
Scott hesitated. "No," he admitted
finally.
"I have."
Scott blinked at her. Bouncy little
Pamela, a rock climber? Under full gravity? He vaguely remembered her
chattering about it the day she arrived, but...On the other hand, he
remembered much more clearly the way she had so easily shrugged off his
grip. And her body, revealed in the one-piece form-fitting undersuit in
the transporter airlock as they'd suited up, was lithe, strong and
supple. But still...
"That was on Earth."
"Yeah, on Earth. Under one full gravity.
On full-size mountains." She waited.
The moon is different, he wanted to say.
A hundred different things can kill you here besides falling. You could
hole your suit, bump a control and never know it 'til the oxygen mix
went bad, freeze your feet or fingers, go blind from looking into the
sun...
"I've got more oxygen than you do,"
Pamela continued relentlessly. "It's going to take help a while to get
here even after the transmitter is turned on, isn't it? We're going to
have to share."
Share? Share a suit pack? Scott had
heard of it being done--once. If anyone else had tried it, they hadn't
survived to talk about it. You risked losing all the air in both suits.
Which is what happens anyway if you
don't get going, an inner voice taunted him. What's the matter,
Morgan--afraid Earthers aren't so useless after all? Afraid the Moon
Baby isn't as wonderful and special as you'd like to think? Afraid
she'll show you up?
"All right," he snapped. "Let's climb."
#
The EVA went smoothly at first. Before
they had left Apollo City everyone had donned undersuits. Now they
slipped into the moonsuits themselves, with help from the Lunite guides.
Scott helped Pamela into hers, finding himself momentarily nose to nose
with her as he zipped up her suit and connected and checked the suitpack.
She grinned at him and he found himself smiling back, and for a moment
he wanted to stay that close to her, and maybe get a little closer...
He stepped back quickly, angry at his
body's reaction. So she was young, and female. So what? She was a
spoiled rich-kid Earther and his parents had set things up just to check
how he reacted. He'd breathe vacuum before he gave them the
satisfaction.
Pamela had reinforced his disdain of her
out on the crater floor, when she ignored the call to return to the
trasnporter and instead bounded half a klick away to investigate an
oddly coloured outcropping of rock. He'd been forced to go after her; by
the time he'd gotten them both headed back to the transporter, everyone
else was already inside.
Then the moon had shrugged.
#
Pamela knew what she was doing. Scott
had to grudgingly acknowledge that. She'd insisted they use piece of
webbing that had held stores on the outside of the transporter as a
short rope, and now she toiled above him, testing each handhold and
foothold, never moving until she was sure of her next step, yet even so,
climbing steadily, twice as fast as he could have managed on his own--if
he could have managed at all. The airless shadows were so black it was
almost impossible to judge the rock they hid, but Pamela never seemed to
put a foot or finger wrong.
Scott's own feet, fingers, legs and arms
ached abominably after fifteen minutes, were pure torture after half an
hour. Maybe it was the pain--maybe it was their increasing height above
the transporter and the jagged rocks that covered it--but as they neared
the top, Scott reached for a rock he had seen Pamela pass over a moment
before, and pulled himself up on it.
It crumbled away like cake and he fell.
Their makeshift rope brought him up with
a jerk, a gentle jerk in the light gravity, but enough to set him
swinging. He barely saw the sharp tooth of stone in time to throw up his
arm and fend it off. Instead of smashing his faceplate, it rang against
the side of his helmet. He grabbed at it frantically and clung to it,
breathing hard, all-too-aware of how close he had come to finding out
first-hand what explosive decompression was like.
"You all right?" Pamela's voice was a
little higher-pitched than usual, but steadier than his own was as he
said, "Yes."
"All right, then. Reach up and put your
hand where you see my left foot..." Step by step she talked him back
onto safe rock, and she kept talking to him until, only a few minutes
later, she abruptly disappeared. Another few feet and Scott reached the
top himself, to find Pamela standing, arms spread, slowly turning a
circle as she absorbed the view. "I wish I had a flag to plant!" she
cried. She's not even breathing hard, he thought. He was, and he had
less than an hour of oxygen left. Not enough time for rescue to reach
them from Tranquility Base.
He shook his head, refusing to think
about it yet. First things first. He planted the transmitter firmly in
the gritty soil, opened a small panel at its base and pressed a switch.
The device unfolded like a butterfly emerging from its cocoon, extended
antennae, and let out a piercing electronic shriek that told everyone
within receiving range that there was TROUBLE at this LOCATION and
they'd better SEND HELP FAST! Scott knew it transmitted on every
commonly used Moon frequency; he quickly dialed his own radio to an
unaffected one and then grabbed Pamela, who was staring at the
transmitter with her hands uselessly over her ears, and reset her radio,
too.
After that there was nothing to do but
wait--wait for help to arrive, or for Scott's air to run out. There was
little doubt which would happen first.
At first they sat in silence, then
finally Scott asked, "You really are a good climber."
"Thanks. It's a big sport in Montana."
"Montana," Scott said. "I've seen
pictures. It's very beautiful."
"Pictures! Pictures don't do it justice.
You should come see it for yourself."
Scott stiffened. "I wish you'd quit
saying things like that."
"Oh, come on. You can't be planning to
spend your whole life on this rock."
His whole life? All thirty-two minutes
of it? He shook his head. She still didn't understand about the air. Not
really. How could she? Scott thought half-bitterly, half-sadly. In
Montana there was lots of air. "This is my home," was all he said out
loud.
"I'm sorry. And it's very beautiful. But
it's not--natural. It's not Earth."
"I'm not natural either. I'm the Moon
Baby."
"And I'm a Montana Baby. It doesn't--"
"Don't you get it? I'm special. I'm
unique. I'm an experiment. If I left the moon, went back to Earth--it
would spoil the experiment." He paused. "And there's something else," he
finally went on. He didn't like to talk about it, but what difference
could it make now? "My parents--the other doctors--they think maybe I
can never go to Earth."
"What?" They were sitting on the ground
by the transmitter, back to back; he felt Pamela shift, sensed she had
turned her head toward him. "Why?"
"Gravity. They're afraid of what might
happen to me under full gravity."
"But they don't really know."
"No. Some of them say, a couple of weeks
in bed, some gentle exercise for a few more weeks, I'd be able to
adjust. But some of them--" He shrugged, though he doubted she could
sense it. "Some of them think I'd be risking permanent damage--I could
be crippled. Or worse."
"That's why you work out so much!"
"Yes. And that's not all." He told her
about all the other things being the Moon Baby had meant--the
examinations, the lack of privacy, all the rest, the words starting slow
and then flooding out of him, until he was talking about those things as
he had never talked to anyone about them before.
When he had finished, Pamela was silent
for a minute. Finally she said, "You mean, even arranging for you to
spend time with me while I was here was just part of an experiment?"
"Yeah."
"That stinks."
Scott shrugged. "I'm used to it."
"But how can your parents--"
"I don't really blame them." Scott was
surprised to find he meant it. "I mean, I understand it. This is the
Moon. Apollo City is both a research station and a kind of frontier
colony. Everything has to serve a purpose; most things have to serve two
or three purposes. I might have been an accident, but once I was born,
they couldn't waste me. So I became an experiment. Lunites--we tend to
view everything that way. It has to be useful, has to accomplish
something, or else it's just wasting space, wasting air, wasting time,
all resources in short supply up here. If they hadn't learned from me,
they'd have been wasting me. It's not that they don't love me, they're
just--"
"Using you."
"That's not--"
"Sounds fair to me." Pamela sighed.
"Look, Scott, believe it or not, I know what it feels like. My
parents--they're busy all the time, you know? Dad's business keeps him
away a lot, and Mom's always either off on publicity tours or locked in
her office with a DO NOT DISTURB sign on the door. They try to make up
for it by buying me stuff and letting me do whatever I want to. This
trip was my idea. They weren't wild about it, but they felt so guilty
about 'neglecting' me they went along with it."
"I don't see--"
"My parents are there, I guess, you
know, in the house with me, but they're not ˆthere๘, not all the time. I
figure the sooner I'm able to look after myself, make my own decisions,
the better off we'll all be. Sounds to me like you're in the same boat.
It's about time you started looking after yourself. Forget this Moon
Baby crap and start thinking of Scott Morgan. What does he want?"
What does he want? Scott thought.
To be useful on the Moon as a walking guinea pig? Or to take a
chance on the Earth? It might be painful--even impossible. But shouldn't
he at least try?
If he lived. The thought hit like a
blow. He'd forgotten his situation. Amazing how the brain refused to
accept, even believe in, its own impending end. He looked at his wrist,
saw with bleak fascination he was down to five minutes of oxygen. He
probably had a couple of minutes' leeway after that, breathing the air
in his suit, but that would grow stale in a hurry, and then...
...then...
Then he wouldn't have to worry about
what Scott Morgan wanted, because Scott Morgan wouldn't want anything at
all.
If they were going to try to share
suitpacks, they'd have to try soon, Scott thought, before lack of oxygen
made him sluggish. But if they bungled it, when the transporter arrived
it would find not one but two stiffening corpses beside the transmitter.
Even if they succeeded, that might be
what the rescuers would find. Pamela had about an hour's air left. That
should be enough for the Tranquility Base transporter to find them. But
if they shared air, they might each, with the inevitable loss involved
in the transfer, have only about 20 minutes--and that might not be
enough. They could share air and still die together.
Pamela doesn't deserve that, Scott
thought. The Moon was his home. He'd always known something could
go wrong and the Moon would prove that old saying about it being a harsh
mistress. If he died...well, it would be fitting, wouldn't it? First
native born on the Moon, first native to die on the Moon. But
Pamela...he'd wanted her to understand the Moon's harsh realities, but
not that way. Cheery little Pamela deserved to go back to her Montana
horses and her school friends and her rock climbing, to laugh under the
Earth's blue skies, where she belonged and he never could.
And so he said nothing, only sat there
in morbid silence and watched his wrist gauge count down his life;
watched it reach zero, and heard the faint hiss inside his suit die
away.
#
Light swept over his face, vanished. The
ground vibrated. Moonquake! he thought sluggishly. Aftershock...the
thought dribbled away into darkness.
More light. Voices. Air! He gasped air,
rich air, unbelievably sweet air, and his eyes fluttered open. A woman
loomed over him. He blinked her into focus. "He's coming around," she
said, and vanished.
"Scott?" Pamela's worried face swam into
his field of vision.
"Wha--?" His voice was dry as moondust.
"The transporter came--maybe ten minutes
after you passed out. They'd left Tranquility Base right after the
quake, before they heard the transmitter, because they tried to contact
the tour bus and couldn't. But they said they would have missed us
completely if the transmitter hadn't been activated." Pamela sounded
both happy and furious. "You idiot! I told you I'd share. You could have
died!"
"Sharing--trying to--could have killed
both of us." Scott coughed raggedly.
"But it didn't, did it?"
For a moment that didn't register on
Scott's still-sluggish brain. "What? You mean you..."
Pamela grinned. "It wasn't that hard.
I'd watched you connect all the hoses when we suited up, so I knew what
went where." Her smile faded. "It was close, though," she admitted. "I
figured we had about five minutes apiece left when the transporter
showed up. If it hadn't left early..."
"I knew--not enough," Scott croaked.
"That's why--didn't try it. Figured--you deserved air. Climbing--you
saved everybody."
"I saved everybody? I was running
around in circles chasing my own tail down below. I wouldn't have known
how to set up the emergency transmitter--I didn't even know there was
an emergency transmitter. You're the hero."
Scott shook his head vigorously.
Pamela grinned again. "Tell you what. We
shared air, we'll share glory, too. But you have to make me a promise."
Scott managed a small smile. "Name it."
"You have to come rock-climbing with me
again." Her eyes locked on his face. "In Montana."
Scott thought about what his parents
would say; what Luna Agency would say, especially when he refused any
publicity; what the doctors would say. He thought about what Pamela's
parents would say when they found out their daughter was meeting that
strange boy from the Moon in the wilds of Montana. But he didn't think
about any of it very long. None of it mattered.
He'd almost died. Moon Baby had
died. From now on, he was just Scott Morgan--not unique, not a hero,
just a boy. Still a Lunite, and always a Lunite--but more than willing
to give other parts of the Solar System a chance. Even Earth.
Even Earthers.
He met Pamela's gaze. "It's a deal."